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(Monday, September 26, 2005-)
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this few days.. i think i going to miss her lots arx.. just now read those bulliten things posted by her.. i was wondering how she is.. she seem sad.. but.. i cannot do anything.. i dun know if she still treat me as a friend.. or had already forgotten the existence of me.. i really dun know.. i wish i had the answer.. i really do.. the way she answer those question let me feel a certain sense of sadness in her.. like she is hurt.. i really wan to find out more.. i wan to call her and talk.. make her happy again.. but i know i am not her stead.. i cannot do anything.. just hope that her stead can treat her better.. i was hoping for her to be my closest friend even though we are not stead.. but she seems to be drifting further and further from me.. but my love for her did not change a bit.. honestly.. i am jealous.. jealous that they guy she love is not me.. jealous and regret deeply in my heart.. but.. i really hope.. hope that her stead can really treat her more better.. better in a sense where he can take some time to accompany her go out walk walk.. cox i know she like to go out walk walk and have fun de.. from what i know, i only know she often hang out at kovan, compass, hougang point, all these places.. but she loves to go out walk walk bahx.. especially with someone she loves.. if i was her boyfriend.. i will always be there whenever she needs me, pei her go out when she is lonely.. do everything for her just to see her happy.. but sadly.. now, i only can think.. but cannot experience the love again.. sobx..
one thing that hurts me lots is that.. why is she treating me like this arx? after whatever i did for her.. those small small gifts i bought for her.. games, cds, books, necklace, bags, food, anything.. at that time.. i really tot she will only love.. but i guess.. i was a fool.. cox she say one thing.. that make me believe her.. one time.. when we quarrel until very very big.. i suggested to break up to end each others misery.. and she said something that make me regretted my mistake.. she say.. "then how.. after all the waiting i waited when you were having your o level, after everything i had to put thru your parents.. and now to break.. and whose shoulder shall i lie one whenever i am tired.. whose arms shall i hug when i am sad.. who is going to be there when i cry.." once i hear this.. i was somehow touch by her words.. and i am going to love her till the very last breath of mine in this world.. even now.. i admit.. i still love her.. i wan to be that guy to be there for her whenever she needs me de.. hiash..
augustine really loves u fen.. augustine is really sorry le.. he had regretted alot le.. now he knows his mistakes and promises to be a very good stead to you.. but augustine dun wan to break u and him up.. he only knows he can wait de.. augustine here can wishes u everlasting happiness and also hope that you and ur stead can be happy too.. dun be sad and confused le.. be happy bahx.. please do call augustine to talk sometimes.. he really misses u lots.. augustine was to have a very close friend.. can you be his close friend? augustine is always here de..
*pray* fen stead, please take a very good care of fen.. dun like her be sad and confused.. let her be happy more often.. thank you for looking after her.. and hope u can love her with all your heart *pray*
*pray* fen.. please try to work hard for this year exam.. i know you hate sch but at least please try to pass.. i know you can do it de.. i believe in you.. anything dun know can find me.. and also remember to eat ur food.. stop skipping lunch or dinner le.. later ur gastric more pain.. must really take good care.. there is always a place reserve for u in my heart *pray*
*pray* to all my friends out there.. all the best in what eva u guys are doing.. best wishes and also good luck worx.. remember to always stay happy and dun be sad.. if sad find me bahx.. me make u happy again in anyway i can de *pray*
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