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(Sunday, October 30, 2005-)
+10/30/2005 08:09:00 PM]*
# all me-
hey..
still not used to the feeling of being lonely.. feel like being love by someone or to love someone.. but.. i not sure how to describe this feeling inside of me.. only can say is that those days when i am lonely.. like no where to go during saturdays.. or everyday stay at home.. i think of days when i always spent my times everyday with her..
her... her again.. thinking of her..
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augustine gone..
out and cold..
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(Saturday, October 29, 2005-)
+10/29/2005 07:25:00 PM]*
# me!!!-
recently been thinking about her again.. i do admit i still love her.. and i tot i can control that feeling.. but it is so hard.. i have dreams about her.. my wallet have pictures of the past.. my room brings back wonderful memories.. everything brings memories of us together.. it also had been a very long time since i go shopping.. i scare to have that feeling again.. hiash.. me love her so much does she noe?
i often envy other guys.. guys whose girlfriend give them second chances.. they have hurt the girl very deeply.. like two timing or what and their girlfriend still can give them a second chance and they be together again.. if it was me.. i will not two time.. i only wan to love her.. but for my case.. i did not two time.. but.. there was no chance for me.. not at all.. why? if she was to give me that chance.. i will treasure it very well.. my mistakes in the past.. i had change.. i learnt what should i not do and what i should do.. but it is no use anymore.. cox it is too late..
during our break up she told me she will patch with me de.. one day.. one day.. when is that day? i hope that day really comes.. cox i know what to do le.. the one thing i feel bad is those days when i hurt her.. like times when i should treasure and cherish her.. but i did not.. and now to think of it.. it makes me feels so guitly.. to think why i did for care for her.. but i only can hope now she is happy bahx..
me recently been spending my days and time like when i was in sec sch that time.. when i was single.. going out with friends.. play basketball all these.. but it is still no use.. today play ball half way.. my mind was thinking about her and no concentrating on my game.. whats wrong with me..
people around me are all very happy with their love life recently.. some patch back.. some are communitcating quite well with the girls they like.. while some even stead together le.. love is in the air for them.. but i dun ask much too.. it does not mean that i need to have a stead too.. at least.. i know that i am still waiting for my chance.. hope she give me that one chance to prove myself once more..
so thats it le.. sorry for not updating frequently bahx..
augustine was here..
love
love me
love augustine me
the story ends like this;
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(Saturday, October 22, 2005-)
+10/22/2005 02:04:00 AM]*
# today-
today went out and work worx.. hahax.. earn fast and easy money worx.. heex.. happy.. thankx everyone worx.. for intro me that job.. really enjoy to work today.. hahax.. then go eat.. go home..
ytd night dream of her.. what is the dream? my dream is about me walking along the path.. and saw her opposite.. then later she run towards me.. and ask me to pei her.. and we become friends.. then later at the day night ask me come out to pei her again.. i was so happy.. but again when i woke up but again.. it is all a dream.. sometimes i think do dreams come true? i really hope so worx.. if really come true, i am really happy.. just hope so bahx..
need to continue to stay happy.. tml will be a better day for me!!!!
love
love me
love augustine me..
signing off..
the story ends like this;
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(Wednesday, October 19, 2005-)
+10/19/2005 11:33:00 PM]*
# true story-
boy was thinking about what had happen during their break up..
girl: we will patch back one day..
boy: when will be that day?
girl: just one day.. i not sure when..
boy: can it be on my birthday?
girl: not that fast..
boy: how long do u need..
girl: i not sure.. just one day when the time is right....
boy: ok bahx.. i will wait for that day de..
girl: but if during this time, if i got a new boyfriend.. then..
boy: its ok.. i will bless the both of u with happiness de.. just tell the guy dun be like me.. (boy's eyes start to have tears.. but still insist on being strong)
girl: oh ok.. (eyes start to have tears too)
boy: dun cry le.. (wiping away the tear drops).. this maybe the last time i ever going to clean ur tears le.. cox i will not have that chance anymore.. all i can do is.. wait..
(girl continue to cry)
boy: can i give you a hug?
(boy move forward and gives girl a big hug and then turn away and start to walk off)
boy: bye and take care..
(boy walks away with a very very sad feeling in his broken heart thinking.. will that day come..)
after several months.. boy still cannot forget her.. all he want is to be with her.. but sadly.. his opportunity of her returning by his side is very slim.. only can wait for her.. but will that day come.. boy really dun know.. all he know is that.. in his heart.. he only love her..
to my dear girl:
u only know that in my heart i only got you.. i will never let u go.. but at that time.. i think u have enuff hurtx from me and i had to let u go.. although i do not want to but i really have no choice.. all i can say is that.. i am still here waiting for you worx..
from boy..
the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, October 18, 2005-)
+10/18/2005 09:29:00 PM]*
# sick-
opps.. think i will be sick le.. keep on coughing and also have a hot forehead.. whats wrong with me.. hiash.. cannot be sick.. i still wan have fun.. play.. hiash.. things does not look good for be this few days.. is there sth wrong happening to me.. my body feel weak.. like no strength like this.. oh my gosh.. think will keep it short tonight.. not feeling well..
today went play bball a while.. after the game.. fall sick le.. i did sth today.. i deleted all my msg by accident..was kind of sad.. oh..
love
love me
love augustine me
sick le..
but will be strong..
and i will be back..
u guys take care for me..
*cough*
the story ends like this;
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(Monday, October 17, 2005-)
+10/17/2005 10:48:00 PM]*
# hmm-
today my mother going overseas to do business.. hope she able to succeed.. what i worry.. is my brother.. hope he can really can control his own temper.. really lost and dun noe what to do.. woke up with a heavy heart.. but in the end.. told myself to get a grip of myself.. and also to make my parents happy.. this is what i as a son should do bahx.. look after my brother.. help my parents.. all these things i been doing so much.. and of cox.. i am happy with what i am doing.. although there are times i complain cox i cannot have those things that i want.. like having some times with her.. with friends.. doing my own things.. but was lucky to be able to enjoy lots of wonderful things.. i do believe in one thing.. do good things.. good deeds.. show honesty.. and will get rewarded.. with life.. we anything.. cox good luck will shine on me.. but when doing bad things.. things like stealing or what.. bad luck will rain on me.. and thats not i want to be.. for me.. i had tried before.. i did bad things.. hurting everyone.. and in the end.. i did not enjoy quite much.. lost my things.. injured myself.. but when i do good things.. it happen to me that i have a lot of wonderful things.. whatever i want.. it just happen the way just i wanted.. and i start to believe in this.. do good things.. will get rewards.. bad things.. luck will run away from u.. and.. now i learnt my lesson and only try to do good!! hoping that my luck will change.. and my only wish to come true.. is that she return by my side.. she told me it is impossible.. but.. i only can just hope bahx.. miss her lots..
what was more worse is that.. today while running thru my drawer.. i happen to found two photos of her.. when she was much younger.. how cute she was.. and happy.. and at that time.. our relationship level was very high.. nothing can seperate us apart.. we are always together no matter what.. but now.. looking at those pictures.. happy memories come into my mind.. but when i think i cannot enjoy those memories anymore.. somehow.. i feel a certain of sadness in me.. but.. knowing that me and her had once been together.. it is enough for me to be happy.. but wanting to spend my whole life with her is my goal.. my main aim.. just hope that it may come true bahx..
now i shall end here lo.. dun mistaken me.. i am not sad today.. i am happy.. i will try to be happy.. and also.. to her.. hope u had done well in ur exam.. really hope so.. and i know u have given all ur effort in your studies le.. okok.. take care now ok?
and also to those we read my blog.. also do take care.. take in lots of fluid whenever can and the main thing is to be happy everyday worx..
love
love me
love augustine me..
ending with a certain happiness and joy in my heart..
bye guys!
=)
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(Sunday, October 16, 2005-)
+10/16/2005 09:06:00 PM]*
# sad case..-
was happy a few moments ago.. but now.. only sadness falls in me.. hiash.. why.. i am not a good brother.. hiash.. causing ppl around me to be hurt.. suddenly feel so lost.. so hurtx.. so sad.. no mood tonight.. going to be a long and lonely night for me worx.. dun noe how today will end or tml will be.. but just got to live life as normal.. cox i also have not much of a choice.. hiash..
after u leave me.. my world had turn from brightness to darkness.. warm of the love, to coldness of the wind.. red and strong heart to black and weak.. hiash.. hope u will return to me one day.. will wait for you no matter how long de.. cox i only love you.. my 1st love and the very last love.. hiash..
hurtx.. in love.. in family.. in everything.. whats happening to me.. a boy lost in his own world..
love
love me
love augustine me
will you?
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+10/16/2005 04:11:00 PM]*
# yeah-
yeah.. going to get a new handphone soon le.. so happy worx.. can change my handphone.. but to me.. there is happy and sad.. happy is that the happiness in my phone will be kept in one place and only will be open when she returns to my side.. happy is that i will be having a new phone to use le worx.. really happy.. heex..
maybe this are changes that are needed for a new me bahx.. my wallet.. our pictures.. my hp.. everything about me have change.. but one place for sure will not be changed.. my love for her..
i am really not sure if i could love another girl again or not.. even if i have to love again.. will we last? love to me has become another meaning le.. had taken up into another level le.. but.. will i have this opportunity to experience it again? i am really not sure.. am i ready to love again.. also not sure.. all i know now is for her to be happy bahx..
happiness is what i wanted.. and for her too.. i know she hates me.. but i still try my best to provide for her.. love me one day.. for i am a new me.. please..
love
love me
love augustine me..
care..
=)
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(Thursday, October 13, 2005-)
+10/13/2005 09:38:00 PM]*
# hiash..-
today again whole day stay at home.. so again nth much to say.. only can stay at home.. want to go out but.. no one mahx.. some more no where to go.. hiash.. also dun noe.. stay at home lo.. then some how was thinking of her..
how come love is so strange.. comes and go so fast.. when dun have stead.. was thinking of having a stead to care for and to be care.. but when have stead.. sometimes.. there is a certain feeling of wanting to be single again.. i really dun know how to explain.. me really miss her lots..
there is a certain part of me.. wanting to look for a stead again but was thinking.. am i prepared? am i ready? or.. i not sure.. love.. i love her.. she noes? i dun think so.. why is it this way.. why must i lose her.. how come she cannot care for me and love me the way like she use to before? i dun mind at all.. just wan ur love is enough.. isn't what i had done for her alot of things.. but she.. dun wan to say about the past..
forgets me.. hurts me..
GET OUT!!! FORGET ALL THIS THOUGHTS!!! ARX..
me.. must remember i am a new me.. cannot think.. cannot.. only can wait.. arx..
must be happy..
me..
augustine.. should i call her or not..
still thinking..
hiash..
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(Wednesday, October 12, 2005-)
+10/12/2005 03:43:00 PM]*
# new me..-
heex.. arx.. this few days is relaxing day for me worx.. hahax.. everyday stay at home do nth.. hahax.. only go out play ball, pool then home.. or sometime pei my friend.. heex.. ytd got back my nyp results.. was happy that i pass.. but.. somehow.. i was not happy with my results bahx.. it wasn't that promising.. hahax.. who call me never study well.. heex..
then ytd went to play bball.. then my hand got scratches and cuts.. then somehow it let me think of the pass.. hahax.. when me and her together, she everytime will ask me to take care of myself.. dun get scratches or cuts.. and if i got cut.. then she will scold me.. see.. she was so caring bahx.. she so scared i will get hurts until she hate me playing bball so much.. but.. luckily she still there for me by myside when i needed her.. now she is gone.. i really hope one day she will love me bac? this few days without contacting her.. no toking.. no meeting.. no seeing each other.. me dun wan to make her angry again.. but i also dun know if she is happy or not.. but can only hope so.. hahax.. when hor.. we are together.. every holiday or every weekend.. we will always go out together no matter what de.. and now me got holiday but cannot pei her.. cox we not together le.. its already been so long.. but my heart still waiting for her.. am i dumb?
to me love has taken to another level.. i think i start to understand it more clearly le.. they way ppl think love is different de.. like some guys treat their stead extremely good.. but some treat like they dun care about their stead.. to me.. i think having a very very good trust between each other is very important.. in love.. trusting each other is very important bahx.. and also one more thing.. sometimes it is better to talk it out between each other like how they feel about a certain thing.. like cannot hide sth or what.. honest is the best bahx.. thats what i think and my opinion.. heex..
me is a new me.. new augustine le.. new but heart still waiting for her.. no matter what happen.. my love for her will never change de.. but this new me had learnt lots of thing thru love, friends, family and past.. the bad things i had change over.. the good things.. i had improved.. hope u all see a new augustine in the future.. the world is always changing.. me.. will always remain as augustine..
love
love me
love augustine me
entering a whole new world of happiness..
=)
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(Sunday, October 09, 2005-)
+10/09/2005 07:49:00 PM]*
# bac lo..-
Finally bac le.. hahax.. been thinking about something recently bahx.. so long long neber update lo.. now update think will be constant le.. when i have time i will write de.. promise worx..
this few weeks quite happy bahx.. not much of sad things happen to me at all.. only at some times i like no mood or is thinking about something.. but in the end.. i always manage to be happy.. really.. promise..
me and her are now like strangers le.. no more saying hi to each other.. no more asking me to go out pei her.. or what le.. but to me.. me love for her will never change de.. i still love her.. waiting worx.. saw her friendster updated profile.. all i can say is word.. wow.. hahax.. nice design worx.. ermx.. can help me design to mahx? heex.. just kidding..
really happy to have friends by myside.. cox recently we been going out play pool, basketball.. chat about things.. quite fun bahx.. hahax.. maybe everything really happen for a reason.. maybe me breaking up with her is letting me see what friends are for or what can i do with my friends.. and also during those days with her is to let me feel what is love all about.. me really grateful with my life.. love it lots.. must apprecicate it le.. cannot lose it.. =)
now is the exam season for her.. hope she can pass bahx.. although i noe she hate studying but please study hard bahx.. and also to take care.. i noe i cannot do anything but.. at least be happy..
one thing that i really think clearly in my heart is that.. love to me.. is no longer that strange le bahx.. at least i do think so.. i think love has many types.. relationship, friendship.. all these.. heex.. it too contain lots of surprises.. heex.. look out for it bahx.. hahax..
me in this world will be everlasting happy de.. but sometimes when i am down.. so sorry.. cox emotions is very hard to control de.. me can be happy and next just see something or what can make me really sad.. but the only good thing is i dun show my emotions in front of my friends.. heex. like when i am sad or sad.. and no one knows.. i will remain cheerful and happy in front of them.. but deep down inside of me.. me is sad.. but i do not wish ppl to know.. i do not want to gain attention.. heex.. but me will try to be happy ok? hahax.. wish me luck bahx..
and also think i got two new gan mei mei.. hahax.. so fast got mei mei le.. hahax.. so take care u all and thanks for reading.. sorry for not updating..
taking love to a totally new level..
where love is only true..
no puppy love or ons..
only true love..
which is rare..
but..
when i believe..
it will happen..
trust in myself..
love..
love me
love augustine me..
ending here with a very very happy feeling..
loving every single moment of my life..
my heart was broken..
shattered to pieces..
but with my healing wand..
it shall be glue together..
hahax..
just kidding..
love a new me worx..
i am new!!!
love..
the story ends like this;
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