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(Wednesday, November 30, 2005-)
+11/30/2005 06:37:00 PM]*
# love?-
hiash.. what ish love to me now? i also dun noe.. hmm.. thinking bahx.. ish this the right time for me to fall in love and start a new relationship with someone or wait for my ex or stop the idea of falling in love again? i really do not know.. hate to be stuck like this.. do not like the feeling of it.. hmm.. help someone..
well.. honestly.. me had tot of starting a new relationship.. try to forget the past and start a new.. but ish it possible for her to know that i like her? or will she give me a chance? or? how man.. there are so many answers that i wan to know..
the past.. ya.. been thinking of my ex too.. wondering how she ish.. only know one thing that she had change much after we broke up le.. but now? i do not know.. i only hope i can be her friend.. cox i think i have no more chance for her to return by my side once more.. her impression of me must be very bad bahx.. actually i tot of calling or a send her a msg to ask her how ish she doing? cox i know her by her character ish that she tend to keep problems inside and dun say it out.. and causing her to moodswing sometimes bahx.. although she may look happy when with friends, but when alone.. hiash.. ya.. so i tot i can be that friend who help her with her problems.. dun noe when she will accept me once more.. *thinking*
scare the more i think the more white hair i grow.. the next time u all see me think ish i already old man le.. hair all white white.. ya..
love to me was once a stranger.. but after some time.. i start to understand love by a person that come into my life.. we share love together and grow in love with each every day.. after quite some time.. love started to run away from me again.. and i had lost my loving partner.. end up to be alone again looking for love.. and yet.. love had become a stranger again to me.. should i go back to find the love that i lost or should i wait for new love or find love? maybe one day i will have all the answers.. hope so.. i really do..
think i stop here.. dun be mistaken.. me ish not sad or what.. only just want to write what my heart feels inside of me.. ya.. thats all bahx.. go eat food lo..
take care all of u!!
love
love me
love augsutine me
i know i cannot be that perfect guy in ur heart that u always wanted me to be.. but i hope that my presence in ur life had some how teach for show u or maybe let u learn something new bahx..
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(Sunday, November 27, 2005-)
+11/27/2005 10:04:00 PM]*
# same me.. but new!!-
have to say one thing 1st.. so sorry about last blog post.. must be i too sad or what le.. or maybe ish the music to sad.. plus my emotions.. more sad.. become totally very sad.. then write those type of sad post.. very sorry..
today went to play ball.. very long neber play le.. lol.. today got alot of ppl play.. very fun.. lol.. but sad ish that i tio a lot of injuries.. sad.. if my mother see me i can get scolded by her.. lol.. if my ex ish still with me.. she also will scold me bahx.. opps.. should not think of the past.. think of the future.. ya..
opps.. my mother ish at home.. just got scolded.. oh man.. sianx.. lol..
now go play game le..
next time update more..
love
love me
love augustine me
bye..
miss u worx.. heex.. (u noe who bahx.) hmm..
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(Friday, November 25, 2005-)
+11/25/2005 01:17:00 AM]*
# all gone..-
hey.. long time no update le.. so now update bahx.. anyway i cannot slp.. now the time ish 1.18am.. in the morning.. tml still have school.. hmm.. wake up 7.30.. still got 6 hours more.. can i slp mahx?
thinking about her bahx.. hiash.. looks like me have no chance to fall in love once more.. honestly.. this few weeks with her.. been a great time.. playing bball.. going out shopping.. all these things i have not done for a very long long time since i had broken up with my ex.. and some how.. i feel as if she ish the one who came into my life and lighten it up.. show me once more that there ish still chances.. chances for me to fall in love bahx.. me now ish.. happy when i noe her.. but now.. some how.. i dun noe if to be happy or sad.. happy that she still regard me as a friend.. maybe sad ish that dun have the chance to start a relationship again..
when i break up with my ex.. its some how kind of sad.. make me feel as if i am not good enuff.. after what i did.. then some how kind of sad and dun wan to fall in love again.. but then.. some how.. i met my gan mei.. she was kind of sweet.. caring and cute too.. but after some time we lost contact due to her having no more hp and cannot see her in msn le.. so not sure what had happen.. but still really happy to noe her.. and then i meet another friend from friendster.. she was like also recovering from her lost of her bf.. and so was some how like me bahx.. we chat along quite well.. and then now that after the camp.. i meet her.. was really happy to noe her.. very active.. think ish should be super hyper active bahx.. energy cannot finish.. likes to play ball.. can say her skills not bad worx.. ya.. and some how me and her get along quite well.. and also i feel a certain sense of happiness everytime i am with her.. ish that love or my imagination?
but now.. i dun think the time ish right bahx.. ya.. she had told me her feelings le.. she dun wan a relationship.. and i need to respect her decision.. there ish nth i can do.. although me may not have the chance to fall in love.. then just be it.. maybe ish my fate to be alone.. or maybe after all i am not a good stead to anyone.. should be.. thinking alot right now..
me.. hurtx.. in this world.. just leave me alone.. no need to care.. not important.. i just me.. no one but me..
hey.. teacher.. thanks for still letting me be ur student.. at least i am use to the sadness and coldness in my heart.. bye and i see u..
love
love me
love augustine..
should i break down and cry all my emotions?
should i just keep quiet and think till sun rise?
should i stop loving and just be alone?
am i really that bad?
*thinking really alot right now*
all gone thru the wind..
love has neber be to me in this way before.. now i see the other side of what love can do to a person.. there ish good and bad.. positive and negative.. only depending on how u wan to see love.. to me.. love ish going to be stranger from now onwards..
the time ish 1.32am.. shall i go slp? hope i can slp.. miss her..
=( i really miss u.. i love you... =(
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(Tuesday, November 15, 2005-)
+11/15/2005 09:59:00 PM]*
# happy and sad..-
ish been quite long since i updated my blog le.. actually i been quite happy.. after the camp bahx.. meet some new friends.. get to get along quite well with them.. was happy to know them.. never regret it.. ya.. after the camp.. we kept in contact.. i mean i kept in contact with a girl..
cox the both of us like to play bball.. so we met up the next day and play with each other.. it was quite fun.. hahax.. and lata on.. we got to know each other quite well le bahx..
our friends are like saying that we are a couple or going to be a couple all these type of things.. some times i do think to myself.. will i ever get this chance to love again? ish this the time? the right time? ish love coming to find me again?
i really hope so or maybe wish so.. but me being friends with her ish already quite happy enuff for me le.. i dun noe how she think about me.. like my character or what.. but all i noe ish that i like just spending time with her.. i dun noe why.. ish like there is some kind of magnet attracting me like that.. and.. the feeling ish so hard to explain.. ya..
i went to watch movie and it was quite ok.. was quite moody that day.. kind of thinking of the pass where once me and my ex go to.. watch movie play.. all these some how kind of remind me of sad memories.. but i still need to tell myself that i need to forget the past.. but how? hiash.. hope one day.. or how bahx..
looks like i end here le..
teacher,
i think i starting to fall in love with u..
how?
love
love me
love augustine me..
thinking about love
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(Monday, November 07, 2005-)
+11/07/2005 08:54:00 PM]*
# complicated me..-
me.. should i love again? or should i not.. am i ready for love again? i really am not sure.. but me really hope to.. did i really forget about her le.. or.. hiash.. why all this things keep appearing in my head.. is there some way to forget pain?
love? what ish love really.. what does it do? what????? hiash.. i really dun noe.. if that time i tell her.. we dun stead together.. and will this thing like this happen today mahx? maybe we are still friends? hiash.. i really dun noe..
augustine.. thinking about hurtful things.. totally ish sad now.. dun noe what to do..
sad
sad me
sad augustine me
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(Sunday, November 06, 2005-)
+11/06/2005 05:32:00 PM]*
# just bac from camp..-
Just come bac from camp.. 2 day 1 night.. and really really had a great time.. happy to be part of youth club.. hahax.. really did enjoy myself.. cox i think its been quite long times since i did enjoy le bahx.. hahax.. so was really happy that 2 days.. heex.. some more also make some new friends.. and also can enjoy with my friends.. isn't that a happy thing.. heex..
play like siaox.. hahax.. play basketball.. captain ball.. go playground play.. just play and play.. hahax.. from lame to fun.. fun to can think of any games to play.. hahax.. but now reach home le so so so shiok arx.. can slp on my bed.. play games again.. but the only one thing not good is.. haahx.. tml got sch le arx.. totally ish bored sia.. arx..
now updated to here nia.. kind of tired le.. but not slping bahx.. wait till night then slp.. tml sch.. here i come worx..
love
love me
love augustine me..
btw..
today at camp played a game..
say sth about myself that is three truth and one lie..
i say:
1) i started to play basketball when i was sec 2
2) my 1st relationship lasted 1 year plus..
3) i got 2 a's for my last semester exam..
4) i am a very lame person..
can u guess which one? hahax..
see ya..
=)
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(Wednesday, November 02, 2005-)
+11/02/2005 11:42:00 PM]*
# only her-
Inside oh my heart only have her.. no one else le.. just now call her about the cd thing.. and she told me that to pass to her friend then pass to her.. she do not want to see me at all.. but why? what wrong have i done.. hiash.. i also dun noe.. all i noe is i wan to be with her again.. but she ish just dun allow.. why?
is it i am not good enuff for her? or is it my wrong doing is very hurtful? no matter what i do.. will not again make her happy or make up for all the hurts that i done.. cox i truely believe that in some way.. i did alot of things to make her happy.. but looks like its all not good enuff.. just... hiash...
sch is re opening soon again.. not sure if i will have that chance to see her or not.. but really hope i do..
augustine ends here...
must stay happy..
love
love me
love augustine me..
going off..
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