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(Friday, September 30, 2005-)
+9/30/2005 11:36:00 AM]*
# hurtx deeper-
my heart had been hurt again deeper than ytd.. hiash.. yesterday was actually happy de bahx.. went out with friend.. then later go play pool.. go eat.. then happen she msg me say giving me five minutes to say whateva i wan to say to her.. but... then i just ask for being a friend.. but she dun wan.. say what her stead will angry.. will jealous.. hiash.. if like that the stead cannot trust her.. then.. hiash.. dun know what to say.. last time when she stead with me that time, she keep on talking to him on the phone lo.. dun think i dun know.. dun think i am a fool lo.. but i still let her talk with him lo.. now arx.. become his stead lioax.. then his stead dun trust her.. relationship always base on how much each person trust each other de.. but.. i not going to say much bahx.. all i can say if one day sth happen.. hope she dun regret lo.. you wan to play games with me.. i too can play that similar game.. dun wan to tok about the past.. why? u scared arx? scare of facing the reality right? scare that u are not able to lift up ur head and walk right? all those things i did for u does not seem to be good to u right? all is not good enough for you.. tell u the truth.. i can bet that i did alot of good things for u more than bad lo.. only that is you always see the bad things only.. and not the good.. i pay those things for you right? you treat it as what? as a daily thing le.. like i must treat u like that.. and once i hurt you.. u will always remember that.. and neber even dare or take ur time to think of what i had done for you before.. ok?
i really dun know what to do now... everyone around me is all finding happiness le.. i only can wish all of them happiness.. and to all my friends out there.. dun need to worry for me.. i am ok de.. all i can say.. as times goes by.. my heart may be healed once more.. but i do not know how long le.. just forgeting her is an impossible thing.. i dun wan to let go.. is already very long since we broke up.. should i look for another? or.. what.. do anyone have that answer that i been trying to solve in my heart.. who will be the one loving me again? her? not sure.. love me
love
love-me
love-augustine-me
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