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(Wednesday, September 28, 2005-)
+9/28/2005 11:27:00 AM]*
# hurtx deeply..-
think i had found my answer to everything le bahx.. especially what i found out today.. hiash.. i had a very great dream last night.. i dream that my ex were in the same bus sitting together.. when all a sudden, she turn towards me and tell me that she is sorry and wan to patch back.. and later gave me a hug.. and i was so shock and stun.. everything feel so real.. i was so happy.. i was so happy till i woke up.. but when i found out that everything is just a dream.. some how.. sadness come over me again.. then later my phone got two msg.. one from her.. its her stead msg me to stop bothering her.. but why can't i look for her to chat? cannot mahx? hiash also dun know.. then later tot about a lot of things.. i did for her.. do u know that for her, i some how spend alot of money.. hiash.. i was really blind.. stupid me.. silly me.. i am a totally idiot.. to love some one.. me loving some one.. is a very very very unbelievable thing.. hiash.. i love her.. i did for her so much.. but did she appreciate it? fen.. u should know it urself.. what i had done for u ok? ya.. you say ur other ex is not like me.. still wan to be with you.. cox i had spent all my time, effort, money, on this relationship.. and to get this type of ending.. who likes.. i been cheated by you!!!!!! my 1st love.. i still remember the 1st day we stead, you tell me will give me a love that i will neber forget.. so do u mean by this? this is the love that i will neber forget right? i very painful one.. ya.. i am not a good stead.. any other guys out there are more better than me.. so u being with me is for my money only right? cox i rich.. so rich arx. tell u hor.. i now am broke.. do u know that? no right? and i still buy for u those top up cards, pay ur internet fares.. help to top up ez link cards, buy food for u to eat.. all these not enough for u? dun make u happy right? ok fine... me is lousy stead.. thats why.. i told u le.. u are my first stead.. anything that i am not doing correct can tell me? cox i really not sure what a stead should or should not do ok? and u wan freedom.. how come u neber tell me u wan freedom when i was still in holy high? tell me? u everyday will always be with me no matter rain or shin.. and after i leave holy, you tell me that u wan ur freedom.. let me tell u what i think.. is because during that time u and ur friends all not at good terms thats why u wan to be with me.. and i was that only fool who can pei u at that time.. then after i leave holy high le.. you and ur friends start to get back together.. and then think u miss those feelings of being with friends.. and from the 1st month of this year.. i think u already dun love me only.. and u cheated me.. i can agree one thing.. yes u did love me before.. but only till last month december.. the rest of the other months is all fake de.. u were just using me so u can use internet and have top up cards for free.. i know.. taking advantage of me right? cox every since that day u were dishonest with me.. i can tell it ok.. if there was a very good reason why u leave me and u tell me.. i am ok with it.. but i dun think u give me a good reason at all.. say what i keep on threatening you right? let me tell u.. that is just an excuse.. the real reason u know it inside urself.. is because u wan to be with ur friends again and found me useless anymore.. but only can be use as someone who provide money for ur things mahx.. right?
think i am totally hurt inside out.. going out for a walk.. fen.. do u know that.. what ever things that u dun like about me u can tell me? i can change? there is no need for quarreling to take place de.. hiash.. but...
love
love-me
love-augustine-me
totally hurtx..
inside out..
can someone ment this shattered heart of mine?
the story ends like this;
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