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(Friday, September 23, 2005-)
+9/23/2005 11:44:00 PM]*
# ~thinking~-
today was suppose to stay at home de.. but my mother wan me go out to my father shop.. so i go lo.. but go there do nth also.. hahax.. if give me choose, i rather stay at home.. heex.. today, my feeling was very funny de.. cox everyday i grow up with this feeling of loss of my ex.. in the past.. i dun have de.. i did not have any trouble with my feelings and emotions anymore.. but recently.. i start to miss her again.. i dun know what is this but.. maybe something is telling or giving me a hint bahx.. i also not sure.. to follow this feeling or what.. but.. maybe i will bahx..
today at my father's shop, let me think of many wonderful memories of me and her.. in the past, her house internet cannot use mahx.. then happen near my father shop there got a internet cafe.. so i intro her to go.. and she was quite happy bahx.. so everytime when she is free, she will come and find me and use internet.. i am very happy to see her and also most importantly, seeing her happy.. i paid for all the internet fares.. this is what i can do for her.. somethings i give her surprises like buying food for her to eat.. or can go out with her walk walk.. but sometimes.. sadly.. she need to go home herself.. and i cannot stand that.. the hurt, the pain.. i try to get rid of the pain by joking with her.. making her laugh again.. but.. she always goes home alone.. and i am very sad.. we did quarrel.. orchard mrt station is also another place where i will alawys remember.. i am always there waiting for her to come.. and then we will go to tang center there.. and i treat her eat the yaki tori Q chicken.. i know that is one of her favourite food.. so i will surprise her as much as i can.. heex.. make her happy.. yupx.. but that is all the past le.. often i wanted to be with her still.. seeing her laughing at my jokes.. lying down on my shoulder when tired.. holding my hand tightly and neber let go.. all this will always be kept in my heart.. do u know fen? i still love u.. i dun wan to give u up..
someone mention to me that i should stop loving her.. cox both of us will suffer.. sorry to say this.. but i think is not bahx.. i dun think she is suffering now.. although i not clear how her stead is treating her or how is she recently.. but from what she told me before.. she say she is very xinfu with him.. and i hope so bahx.. i not quite sure if she had already forgotten who i am le.. maybe to her.. i am already a stranger le.. but i also cannot do anything.. yupx.. but i love her.. i read before in some where that to love a person, u did not need to be with that person 24/7 or even must the other person love u back then that is call love.. i can love her.. i only wan her to be happy with her life.. only now.. i have limits.. in the past.. when i was her stead.. i can hug her when she cry or sad.. kiss her when she needed me.. but now.. as a friend or maybe a stranger.. i could only talk to her.. hoping maybe she will listen.. thats all.. or do small things to make her happy.. to see her happy is all i ask for.. so please dun ask me to stop loving her.. she needs someone to care for her de.. i dun wan her to be so lonely and sad.. i really hope her stead can treat her right..
i do not wan to be the guy who broke off their relationship so that she can be with me.. the only thing i can do it wait.. i really love her.. she is so different from other girls i know.. she loves her stead in a way that i think is very special de.. and i really appreciate it.. but its too late le.. thats why i love her.. and in this world.. there is only one her.. no one can replace her in my heart.. i will wait for her..
to me.. this three words i love you not only have a meaning but it represents something.. it represents me.. me over her for u.. and to love you.. and to show u the care and concern that u needed from me.. all i can say is.. i will not hurt u de.. i learnt my lesson le.. i hope u will always stay happy.. and next time see me can say hi? is all i ask for le.. last but not least.. i wish u happiness forever worx.. u really must take care.. if need help in studies.. find me? i will help u till the end de.. i will not leave u alone in the dark..
love
love-me
love-augustine-me
stranger in the dark..
heaven knows whose guardian angel i shall be..
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