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(Friday, November 25, 2005-)
+11/25/2005 01:17:00 AM]*
# all gone..-
hey.. long time no update le.. so now update bahx.. anyway i cannot slp.. now the time ish 1.18am.. in the morning.. tml still have school.. hmm.. wake up 7.30.. still got 6 hours more.. can i slp mahx?
thinking about her bahx.. hiash.. looks like me have no chance to fall in love once more.. honestly.. this few weeks with her.. been a great time.. playing bball.. going out shopping.. all these things i have not done for a very long long time since i had broken up with my ex.. and some how.. i feel as if she ish the one who came into my life and lighten it up.. show me once more that there ish still chances.. chances for me to fall in love bahx.. me now ish.. happy when i noe her.. but now.. some how.. i dun noe if to be happy or sad.. happy that she still regard me as a friend.. maybe sad ish that dun have the chance to start a relationship again..
when i break up with my ex.. its some how kind of sad.. make me feel as if i am not good enuff.. after what i did.. then some how kind of sad and dun wan to fall in love again.. but then.. some how.. i met my gan mei.. she was kind of sweet.. caring and cute too.. but after some time we lost contact due to her having no more hp and cannot see her in msn le.. so not sure what had happen.. but still really happy to noe her.. and then i meet another friend from friendster.. she was like also recovering from her lost of her bf.. and so was some how like me bahx.. we chat along quite well.. and then now that after the camp.. i meet her.. was really happy to noe her.. very active.. think ish should be super hyper active bahx.. energy cannot finish.. likes to play ball.. can say her skills not bad worx.. ya.. and some how me and her get along quite well.. and also i feel a certain sense of happiness everytime i am with her.. ish that love or my imagination?
but now.. i dun think the time ish right bahx.. ya.. she had told me her feelings le.. she dun wan a relationship.. and i need to respect her decision.. there ish nth i can do.. although me may not have the chance to fall in love.. then just be it.. maybe ish my fate to be alone.. or maybe after all i am not a good stead to anyone.. should be.. thinking alot right now..
me.. hurtx.. in this world.. just leave me alone.. no need to care.. not important.. i just me.. no one but me..
hey.. teacher.. thanks for still letting me be ur student.. at least i am use to the sadness and coldness in my heart.. bye and i see u..
love
love me
love augustine..
should i break down and cry all my emotions?
should i just keep quiet and think till sun rise?
should i stop loving and just be alone?
am i really that bad?
*thinking really alot right now*
all gone thru the wind..
love has neber be to me in this way before.. now i see the other side of what love can do to a person.. there ish good and bad.. positive and negative.. only depending on how u wan to see love.. to me.. love ish going to be stranger from now onwards..
the time ish 1.32am.. shall i go slp? hope i can slp.. miss her..
=( i really miss u.. i love you... =(
the story ends like this;
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