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(Saturday, December 03, 2005-)
+12/03/2005 10:25:00 PM]*
# sad augustine me-
no words could describe the way i am feeling now.. but what i can say.. ish only maybe one or two words.. sad bahx.. two words.. hurts and sadx.. recently i did not have enuff slp.. in the end causing me to be quite weak.. so often some nights i would be giddy or what.. but still, i can tahan.. ya.. hmm.. me also often easily moodswing nowadays.. dun noe whats wrong.. is it because i think too much? or ish it just that sth ish not right? i also dun noe..
love.. maybe me ish not suitable for love.. i should stop loving her le.. or maybe stop like her.. be alone.. go thru the lonely process.. anyway i had done and gone thru and some how know the feeling of loneliness so think will be able to withstand that type of hurts and pain bahx.. given up.. given up on hope.. and on love.. with my life.. everything..
feel so strange.. dun noe what ish my mind thinking now? only hope that ish happy can le.. i ask nth much.. just dun wan to be left out again.. dun wan to be alone.. not use to being alone.. hate it lots.. ever since i was left alone since my break up.. its been quite a hard experience for me to go thru.. and do not wan to go into that same way again.. hiash..
ish love really that hard? that pain? how come some ppl get to feel love in a different way than me? some are more fortunate? some have understanding stead.. but me dun have such luck.. ish it because that i am not good enuff?
here lies a guy that would not be care or love by anyone.. not important to anyone.. only ish a person who helps and try to give joy into ppl life.. hope at least i did my part in bringing some joy or happiness in their life bahx.. thats all i can say..
here..
ending..
sad.
not love..
sad
sad me
sad augustine me..
will the love cupid thingy shoot an arrow at me? so that i can feel again.. what ish love..
*thinking*
from the 1st day i meet you.. i did not know that things will turn out this way.. if given a chance to change.. i would only change the time and hope for that day to never end so that i can be with you longer and foreva.. but that ish only in that fantasy world.. not true in the realistic world.. augustine gone.. ------
the story ends like this;
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