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(Saturday, May 13, 2006-)
+5/13/2006 11:55:00 PM]*
# surprising me-
Today was kind of a interesting day bahx.. well.. i decided to pon scs.. just to pei her.. cox i scare lata she lonely.. meet her and chin at 11.30.. then if chin and me go scs de hua.. she will be alone sit outside.. then i dun wan her lonely cox i know what she ish going to do whenever she ish lonely outside alone!!!
i did something that i did not expect myself to do.. i was thinking whether i should say it or not.. but curiosty got the better of me so i go ahead and tell her about how i feel towards her.. saying about the past.. the reason.. of everything i could think of at that moment cox it been kept in my heart for so long and finally i get this chance to tell her everything.. been quite emotional for me but i manage to stick thru it.. there lots more for me to say.. but.. i dun think i ever have the chance again.. but chin appear.. and then i know that it is the end.. cannot say le..
for me.. i know already whats the answer.. but i hope that it ish not true.. on the other hand.. she had not given me an answer.. all she told me was why i wanted to choose her.. and she tell me to forget about it.. but at least it is not an answer.. or maybe i dunch wish to know the truth.. cox the truth might be to hurtful to me.. i really enjoy spending time with u.. treasure every minute and even seconds.. seeing u beside me ish like the happiest thing in my life..
i think i come to a point where i can understand things better.. i know what to do and what not to do.. sometimes i really hope u can gib me another chance.. to prove to u.. to show u.. it is not that i dun wan to be friends with u.. yes.. i like what we are now.. friends.. best friends.. but in my heart i often go over the extend of thinking we are friends.. there are times where i almost wan to go forward to hold ur hand.. even to give u a hug.. i just dun know is that what i should do.. i am confused..
i love being with u.. i like it more when i see u happy.. i know we cannot be together so i will only hope u can be happy.. now my choice in my life.. without ur answer yet.. i will still be the person in ur life to make u as happy as possible.. so that u will not feel sad.. will not give up hope on whateva u are doing.. u have change since we 1st meet.. not say u change worst or what.. but change to another person that make me again like u again..
1st love is the hardest to forget..
but will i be the one to forget it?
love
love me
love augustine me..
please say yes..
=)
tml going to play ball.. well hope i can go.. some more ish mother day.. hmmx.. happy mothers day.. =).. but with my leg injured like that can i play? hmmx..
the story ends like this;
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