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(Wednesday, May 10, 2006-)
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# what is jealousy..-
why do jealousy have to appear in my life.. why am i jealous of others.. cox their life is more better? cox they get to spend their life with someone who they love and being love by? i just dun know why.. seeing other people happy makes me jealous of them.. how i wish i could treasure that someone in my life.. but for now.. i dun think there will be anyone.. no one seems right.. or maybe no one seems right cox i already found the right one? this ish what i heard or watch from a show..
if what i guess ish right.. i found the right one for me.. there will be another problem cox i dun know who that person ish.. is it her? i dun know.. arhx... seeing other ppl so good to her and also she good to other ppl kind of making me jealous.. shit me.. what am i doing.. falling in love again? i really guess or think that i starting to like u again.. oh my gosh.. what to do.. zZzzzzzzzzzzzz..
confused..
never in my life i might think that we will be able to talk again.. or maybe get to sit together.. go out together.. well.. it did came true.. i really appreciate and treasure those times with u.. i dun know why.. but there ish a certain feeling that i feel when i am with u.. its feels so different from other ppl i go out with.. i dun know how to explain that feeling.. like being with u alone let me feels that theres no one in this world only me and u exsist.. i could sit beside u for hours not doing anything but just looking at u doing ur things ish very pleasing enuff for me.. i miss those days we once spent.. although i know to myself that the past is gone and not be able to appear in my life again.. but i just sometimes hope that we may start afresh.. starting again with new love, new life.. recently in my dreams i dreamt of u.. dreamt of u just beside u.. i could just feel it.. felt so real.. but when i wake up and come bac to reality.. a certain sadness appear in my heart.. cox how i wonder it can come true..
there is one happy thing and that ish that my mother and i have got along better.. well she is still angry over me.. but.. now at least she talks to me.. its makes me happy though.. cox today i am able to tell myself that i am the luckiest person to be alive today cox today really was kind of a good day for me bahx.. all is missing now is the love in my life.. i been searching for u high and low waiting for a miracle to happen.. so that u can appear in my life once more.. i dunch know who are u.. but are u searching for me like that way i am searching for u now?
i dunch know..
love
love me
love augustine me
what to do now?
sit and wait..
can u gib me a sign..
or sth so i can love u again..
the story ends like this;
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