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(Tuesday, June 27, 2006-)
+6/27/2006 09:39:00 PM]*
# given up hope..-
love hurts.. deep down.. i been recieving alot of questions.. my friends all asking me if i patch back with her.. and when i say no.. they dun believe me.. cox they always see me and her together everytime.. but the truth ish really.. no.. i neber ever did patch back with her.. i was just her friend.. but yes.. i wan to patch back.. i wan to prove to her that my love will be different.. but she just dun wan to give me a chance.. well.. its ok.. i dun wan to force love.. i rather wan it come naturally.. but too think that my chances are gone.. not even one.. it hurts me lots..
for the past i been helping her with alot of things.. i pei her when she bored.. i buy ciggy and we share.. when she was sad.. i was there.. when she need someone cox of her family problems.. i was there.. she was hungry and sad.. i was there too.. but i guess she neber ever need notice me or notice what i had done for her.. its just only a orh.. like i should be doing that for her.. i dun know if i am doing the right thing.. its just.. i feel like doing those things for her.. but now i guess i cannot even have the chance to pei her go out anymore..
i dun blame her.. maybe she think i am not good enuff for her.. or maybe i am really that sux in love.. who knows the real answer.. or could be the feeling ish not right bahx.. just hope she can find someone who can love her the way she love that person.. cox the way she love a person is so amazing.. that the person will feel happy whenever when he is with her.. but just hope that guy (whoever it is) to treat her well.. i dun wish her to get hurtx again..
at 1st.. i tot after the ton.. everything is going to be ok.. we will be fine.. happy with each other.. cox i can see she is treating me more better.. when see me will laugh.. happy.. smile smile.. but now.. i see more of her anger and sadness in me.. i guess maybe she ish kinda irritated by me.. i dun know what happen or what cause this.. maybe she already found someone she can love.. and there is no use of me anymore..
i so sad now.. i dun know what to do.. i wan to love.. who doesn't.. but i not given any chances.. some more i dunch think i can share my problems with anyone except post in the blog bahx.. cox i guess she dun like to hear my problems.. when she hear she will scold me or say me and we will cold war.. who can i relate my problems too.. suddenly in this world i feel alone.. but the funny thing ish when other ppl tell her their problems she will consuel them.. tell them what to do.. but what about me? nth? hiashx..
my life really is in a mess again.. studies is getting better le.. at least thats good.. but in love and family.. everything ish worse..
i really love u.. i know u dun wan to hear me saying this to u anymore le.. but i really do.. guess now i had to give up.. and just sit and wait till u need my company again.. but when is that going to be? u promise me we will patch.. but i guess its a lie.. and who knows i am right.. why.. why.. which part of me do u not like.. hiashx..
love
love me
love augustine me..
i see dark clouds over me..
raindrops splash on me..
but i when i look up the sky..
its so bright..
i so down..
i not trying to gain pity from anyone..
is just i wan to write down how i feel..
sad..
the story ends like this;
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