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(Sunday, June 25, 2006-)
+6/25/2006 10:55:00 AM]*
# what to do..-
i lost now.. i am so confuse on what i should do.. i mean.. i like her.. i did try to tell her alot of time.. but i dunch think she ever did like me bahx.. i also not sure.. or maybe she do like me.. or i am just not the right kind of guy for her bahx.. cox i guess there are much more handsome and better guys than me around her.. so why will she choose me even though i did lots for her.. i also dun know if i do is right or wrong.. it just that the more i do things for her.. the more happy she become.. the more i love her.. but i dunch get the love back.. i so scare.. i really scare if one day she found a new boyfriend then what about me..
i guess i lose all my confidence in my dream ytd night.. cox i use to think another way.. i use to think that if i continue to be with her maybe she will accept me.. but now i dunch think i have that confidence to think like that.. my dream.. i was with her.. so happy.. i try to hold her hand and i did it.. she did not reject me.. and as we are walking shopping along.. she suddenly let push my hand away and run towards a very handsome guy and hug him.. then lata she intro to me that is her boyfriend.. at that point.. i felt the whole world just fall down right before me.. then i woke up.. i start to think.. if she really were to find a boyfriend outside.. will i feel that way.. if i will then i got to do sth to stop it.. and again i think alot of stupid things.. i not saying that she should not find a boyfriend or what.. i am not controlling or fighting against her freedom to have a boyfriend or find new guys.. i just wondering what will happen if she leave me.. *thinking*
[F]orever [E]verlasting [N]everending, is what i see in love.. and those words in bracket is the person i love.. maybe its time for me to see clearly and understand the truth.. take it harshly and just keep the hurt inside of me.. we really cannot be together le right.. even no matter how hard i try to be good to u.. i must think that i will be ur best friend, ur true friend and a real friend.. i will be understanding.. but no matter how things change.. no matter what will happen.. my love for u will neber change.. it may sound silly.. but there is no one else that i can love expect for u.. i love you..
still thinking..
love
love me
love augustine me
the story ends like this;
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